everyone has flaws... but when given a choice i just have to give people the benefit of the doubt. focus not on the flaws becuase that will only get you down- whether it's yourself or others. it's not easy. especially becuase i tend to perfect everything but this isn't wise, i realize. i just need to learn to accept and be thankful, no matter the circumstance. it's especially hard in personal relationships. when there's something you just can't stand about someone, it's actually in my best interest- and the relationship, of course, to just let things go-- if there are good things, then why not focus on the good things, if it's a given that everything, every person has flaws? trying to correct flaws just brings more unhappiness and at the end- the flaw isn't even corrected ...things aren't the way you want them to be. it's God who changes people, only through prayer. and although i've learned that the hard way, i hope that i can build from my mistakes. getting along with people is hard....i guess that's why God says first love each other. if it were so easy, he wouldn't emphasize it so much. loving is hard... when he says 'love ur enemies' i used to think of people who are against me in general. but it can actually be people so close to me-- sometimes people i may care about and love the most...that can become my enemies. what do u do? just have to obey..... no questions asked. i'm always the one to ask 'but why?' but.... there are no but's or why's. just obey- "forgive as i have forgiven you" "love as i have loved you" becuase....i learned...in extremely painful ways.....very many times...... that God's ways are always best. obedience is not about "right and wrong"- in your mind, at the time. it's just trusting that wrong becomes right when you obey him. because at the end, HE'S the one in control. HE'S always on the side of the humble & obedient....even it it seems like the stupid thing to do at the time. at the end, losing in obedience.....is winning ultimately. Lord, help me to love....the way you loved me. | 